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 作者  borbir (       )                                             看板  Leo
 標題  [問題] 我和我喜歡的獅女
 時間  Sun Apr 16 16:48:42 2006
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    我們兩個同班,上學期...班上有個男生追她遭拒,那時候我和她只是普通朋友!!
                                                                               
這學期,我和她關係越來越好...一開始,還只是無話不談的好朋友!!
                                                                               
上個月時,我們兩個關係已經蠻曖昧的!!
                                                                               
很多事情...幾乎都是情侶會作的事情......雖然,還沒到接吻之類的啦!!
                                                                               
像:兩個人找沒人的地方坐在一起...然後要我唱"童話"給她聽!! >///<
                                                                               
不過常常都是在一起...說些有的沒有的.........
                                                                               
然而...4/3那天......她寄了一封信,裡面大概是這樣的!! (複製片段)
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
主題:想了好久，鼓起好大勇氣的一封信
                                                                               
我想了很久很久
那天問你我們是什麼關係?
你說..........
只有單方面的承諾不算戀愛
                                                                               
此時..........
我真的好慚愧
我真的覺得自己好自私好自私
                                                                               
既然不能給你承諾
既然不能確定我對你的感覺
                                                                               
為什麼我還要像降的折磨你ㄋ?
                                                                               
就因為我珍惜你的感情
就因為我對於你對我的好感動了
就因為我不想你為了我的事傷心
就因為我不想你為了我而煩憂
我決定........
在我還不確定前
我不行再像以前一樣了
因為這些對於痴痴的你
是不公平的
                                                                               
不過我們還是可以像以前的歡笑
像以前一樣幫我找歌ㄅ
像以前一樣互相說心事ㄅ
如果你不介意的話............
至少我們可以是好朋友..........
                                                                               
                                                                               
那個禮拜...我幾乎都沒有睡覺!! 衝擊很大!! >_<
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
今天,因為作報告的關係...她寄資料給我,順便說了一些話!!
                                                                               
主題:不知道怎麼跨出那一步
                                                                               
我...一直很希望跟你像以前一樣說話
可是....你總是很冷
我只想說...我不希望失去你這個朋友
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
在她拒絕的我之前,就和化學系的學長關係越來越密切......
                                                                               
拒絕後,她們之間開始明朗化!! 常常...都會不經意的看到她們在一起...有說有笑的甜蜜\
樣!!
                                                                               
雖然...我願意繼續當的朋友.........但是...每次看到她,我都會心悸!!
                                                                               
拒絕後的日子裡,我在她面前...永遠都是很冷酷的臉...不看她一眼...就算不小心對上了\
,就彷彿沒看到一般......很自然的轉頭!!
                                                                               
嗯!~~~上禮拜二,我有傳封簡訊...我打算那是最後一次之間的通訊!!
                                                                               
簡訊上面也有明顯寫著...這是我最後一次的任性管妳......
                                                                               
因為簡訊上面是說件她忽略的小事情!!
                                                                                
傳訊傳過去....沒幾秒...她馬上就打電話過來..........
                                                                               
                                                                               
我(冷冷的):作什麼!? 有事嗎!? (但是心很痛,現在說到她,看到,想到...都很不舒服!!)
                                                                               
她:.........
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